something left to say

Why do I have to be like this?

Why does my presence just make his condition’s getting worse, always?

All I can do is just hurting and hurting someone I care about, someone I love(d).

I’m sorry cause I didn’t have any way out except leaving you , breaking your heart into pieces.

Cause I think you will be better without me.

We're never gonna make it , I knew it long time ago. but I just wait you to say it first, to realize it by yourself.

maybe we don't belong together.

It will be better if you really hurt and fall now than you should be hurt everyday because of me.

I apologize for havin’ cursed you yesterday. I’m really sorry.

I....just thought that I should say that.

I’m sorry for using those poor words. Pardon me.

There are some things you have to know ,

I did it for you , for you who deserve to get the real happiness.

(sorry if I’ve hurt you. I know I choose the worst way to get what I want. Now I take the consequences that I’ve predicted before. It’s okay. No matter if I did something bad in my life, if it’s good for someone I care, I don’t give a sh*t) 
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Well..

Be a good man for beloved one (someday) don’t make her upset..

Be a good boy for your mom and dad.. make them proud of you, and remember if you get success someday , take them to Mecca , that’s your plan , right? :)

Be a good brother for mbak tamtam and especially for your lil sister.. she loves you so much, you know? Show her how much you still love and care of her..

Be a good friend for all your pals, don’t be stingy anymore okay? LoL

And..

Be a good person for yourself..

You deserve to get happiness. pursue your dream , dude!

You should get that scholarship, wherever it is. I’ll wait your news till 2,5 – 4 years later, if you don’t get it, I’ll curse at you again.. lol

One more,

I really truly deeply love you , care of you , even in this my painfulness I still haven’t heart to kill the sense of my love for you. (sounds stupid , doesn’t it?)

But don’t worry, I’ll (always) be okay :D hehehe

For someone there , who will always be in my heart.. someone who has taught me to be mature , to be sincere , to be grateful...

hellboy.

ps: I still... and maybe (will) always..